The llama hearder

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My names Beth,i am 14 years old. I have brown hair and blue eyes. If Hitler was alive he would have killed me by now XD. I go to Admiral Lord Nelson School and i have the bestest friends ever. I do a weird sport called Synchronised swimming - if you don`t know what it means then look it up in a dictionary XD I love to act and sing etc etc. I am extremely random hense the randoms in this thingy about me. I think that is it! Peace The llama hearder :D

Thursday, 9 September 2010

Should i give up....

I`ve been speaking to Liam nearly every night this week.... Every time i speak to him it makes me wonder more and more whether i made the right decision going out with will, i mean, i know that liam loves me, and i feel it to, but with will, i`m not sure if he loves me and i don`t always feel it, Sometimes, liam makes it sound like a competition and i`m the big prize, i`m really not and its horrible to feel like that. I really wanna ask will esacly how he feels towards me but i can`t pluck up the courage :/ Another ting.. I`m thinking so much about who loves me more, that i`m not thinking about who i love more, urghh, i`m really starting to sound like a whore, i`m not, i promise you, its just, i honestly don`t know who i love more, liam just wants a straight answer, but i don`t have one, in a way, i like liam more emotionally- i like talking to him and letting all my feeling out, i really really like it, but i like will more physically - i love how we hold hands and how i feel when i`m actually with him. Urghh... I might just give up on love all together, its too complicated and i hate it. Its been ages since i`ve felt this way about someone, and suddenly 2 people come along at the same time. I feel so stupid right now.. i`m such a plebtard :'( tbh i don`t really know what else to say apart from, i wonder if will would ever phone me at 3 o clock in the morning, just to hear my voice, i know liam would, and he does, its all soo sweet, gahh there i go again, i really should just never speak again, infact i might just dissapear one day, no one would notice....
Well here i go
Peace
Beth xx

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