Pointless...

GUYS are suck DICKS, I seriously just give up, I try and persist with them but NO, just gets thrown back in my face!! Yeah cbf to write anymore...

I may be smiling but I`m cold inside...

^ Speaks for its self really, Need i go on?

My Monologue...

Sally is just an average school girl. She goes to a normal school with a normal life, with normal parents in a normal house. All normal. Nothing extraordinary about her. All alone in the world, her imaginary friend Mindy is the only one there for her.

I might just give up on life. No one wants me here anyway. What difference will it make to the world?
POOF. There, Gone. No more of me being a nuisance to everyone, well, not that they notice me anyway.
The other day for example. I was walking along the corridor at school and along came Sam Jenkins (The schools pushover). I don't fancy him or anything, it’s just, he’s the only guy I’d ever stand a chance with. So anyway, I was walking along and there he was. Thinking I’d be polite, I smiled at him, only to have a scolding look given back to me as if he was protecting his dignity, not that it was worth much. How embarrassing. Me, a lowlife Z class, being rejected by an even lower class. This isn’t the first time either. Its like my lifes a cd, that had a scratch, you know, when the song keeps singing the same word over and over again. Yes, that’s what my life is. A scratched cd. Hey, I am Sally Smith and I live on a scratch Cd. Wow, I really am sad and pathetic. That's why I’m glad to have you Mindy. I know you probably think I’m a complete tard and probably think I always feel sorry for myself, but when your in my situation and have been from the first day of school, then you’ll start to understand why. But however much of this I make you sit through You’d still never scowl at me, you’d never ignore me or push me over in the street, mainly because your imaginary. But Mindy, You’re still special, special to me. A true friend. You keep me going. Even though you’re not real, and when I stop thinking about you. Reality returns, I’m alone again. Just a nobody.



What do you think? Any improvements?

CONNOR!

Hmm.. well this beast magnet Connor i have as a friend. He is a true BABE at heart <3 I`ve like ALWAYS been friends with him and i mean ALWAYS, we were conceived together you know, OK, MAYBE not that would be weird but yeah, We have known each other an awfully long time!! so yeah, Connor you fabulous darling, I know your always be there and i can rely on you for a great time :)

LYSFMB << LOL@THAT lol lol lol lol lol

Aha, We have so MANY great MEMORIES which i shall hold and treasure forever

2K11 AND WHAT, HERE IS DA BIFF AND CONNOR

Watch your butt, yeah?

Love Biffa <3 <3 <3

2011, New Year, New me

I know i probably say this every year but this year i really want to change. Last year was pretty RUBBISH if i`m honest, and not alot of people know what i`ve gone through. It all started with the "LIAM" incident. It just started and never seemed to stop. I just regret ever meeting him in the first place, but I now only know that looking back on all of the mistakes i made, and i made ALOT. Then there was finding out about my mum smoking. You probably STILL think thats pathetic but it still really hurts me to know my mums doing it behind my back thinking i dont know. Then theres aso everyone else. Everyone else pushing their problems into my space. Pushing them into my face. LIKE I KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THEM. I dont even know what to do with my own problems let alone anyone elses....

So I`ve moved into this year, 2011, Leaving all of that stuff behind me.

Thinking this was going to be the greatest year so far I went to school today with a great attitude.

I then came home with an even more black eye than what i went with, tears running down my cheek, one less friend than this morning and the worse feeling i`ve felt for a while. One of my greatest friends.

James goes out with someone, I would name them but I really dont know who, which is what started off this thing. He wouldn`t tell me so started JOKING about it being a boy. He obviously didn`t see the joke and took it the wrong way. But we were annoyed with him, obviously we`re gunna take the mick outta him. So then me and connor were left there whilst all the other abandoned us. I think the thing that really annoyed us is how Charlotte and Kerry know but not us. Charlotte's round his house right now. Funny how they`re now like the bestest of friends and neither me, connor OR kerry were invited round. I know this all sound so childish and it kinda is, It just really frustrates me.

James, if your reading this, which you will be because i`m gunna text you in a second whilst this is finished, I`m REALLY sorry like REALLY sorry!! I didn`t mean it seriously, you KNOW i would never say that and mean it. Fair enough you dont want us to know but just PLEASE dont ignore me. This year i swore to myself i wouldn`t loose any of my friends and be really nice, Well that worked didn`t it. 4 days in and i`ve already MESSED UP. Great going Beth. TBH, I dont blame you for not wanting to tell me. I have a secret too i`m keeping from all of you, a pretty big one at that...

So yeah, ONCE again i`m REALLY and TRULY sorry, to EVERYONE for being a bitch...

Including you Marc, I never meant it like you weren`t good enough for her, you are, its just she didn`t want it to happen, Like i said on msn, i`m REALLY sorry :)

I think thats most of the sorrys over now so onto the future!

The NEW me :)

New look, New Personality, New Attitude, New Look on life :)

Look out 2011

Here come Biffa <3 <3 <3

Awkward...

Well it seems that more people seem to be reading my blog, Hey guys, To be honest, i originally wanted to change my blog as i seem to have quite a few 'things' on here, but then i thought, no, keep it on here. People need to get an insight into what other peoples lives are like and that when someone thinks no one else knows how they feel, they most probably do. So yeah, now everyone knows about my personal life... Liam, will, home, most things. This is my life, and this is my only place i feel comfortable to let everything out.

Peace

The Chief Llama Hearder xx

Kill me now!!

Ive just been tap dancing for 4 hours !! I`m now dying inside, we done it for a reason though, to put money into our dance show and Cystic Vibrosis and Naomi house, A girl at my dancing has cystic vibrosis also known as CF or mucoviscidosis it is a common disease which affects the entire body, causing progressive disability and often early death. Difficulty breathing is the most serious symptom and results from frequent lung infections that are treated, though not cured, by antibiotics and other medications. A multitude of other symptoms, including sinus infections, poor growth, diarrhea, and infertility result from the effects of CF on other parts of the body.
Naomi House provides support to children and young adults, with life-limiting conditions, and their families from across the Central South.
It costs around £5million a year to provide for their services, to families, which include respite, end of life care, emergency support and bereavement support. 90% of their income is donated by local people and businesses.

Peace
The llama hearder x