Living a lie

I`m so angry right now, a while back, i thought maybe my mum was smoking, i had quite a bit of evidence like i found a pack of fags in her bag, she always smells of smoke and once when i phoned my parents when they were at the pub, dad stumbled on my words, he went, yeah, mums just out side, i mean getting a table.......

I absolutely hate smoking, i think its a disgusting habit and if i had the choice i would bann smoking completely, i mean, i understand that when you start its hard to stop, but its the fact i`ve never been told that she smoked, i don`t even know how long shes been doing it, why she started or anything, she doesn`t even know that i know, I found out at school today because i thought she was ages ago, and my friend asked they`re mum if she did and she said yes, but all my friends have kept it from me for ages, i know they only didn`t want me to get upset, but still

Some of you are probably thinking i`m being pathetic, but if you were in my shoes you`d feel the same, Mums had cancer before, yes it was only skin cancer, but its some form of cancer, she obviously wants to choke and die, a bit of over exageratiion there but hey ho.....

I`m just really upset, I just want to speak to her, but i dont want her to know that i know :(

Peace
The chief llama hearder x