2011, New Year, New me

I know i probably say this every year but this year i really want to change. Last year was pretty RUBBISH if i`m honest, and not alot of people know what i`ve gone through. It all started with the "LIAM" incident. It just started and never seemed to stop. I just regret ever meeting him in the first place, but I now only know that looking back on all of the mistakes i made, and i made ALOT. Then there was finding out about my mum smoking. You probably STILL think thats pathetic but it still really hurts me to know my mums doing it behind my back thinking i dont know. Then theres aso everyone else. Everyone else pushing their problems into my space. Pushing them into my face. LIKE I KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THEM. I dont even know what to do with my own problems let alone anyone elses....

So I`ve moved into this year, 2011, Leaving all of that stuff behind me.

Thinking this was going to be the greatest year so far I went to school today with a great attitude.

I then came home with an even more black eye than what i went with, tears running down my cheek, one less friend than this morning and the worse feeling i`ve felt for a while. One of my greatest friends.

James goes out with someone, I would name them but I really dont know who, which is what started off this thing. He wouldn`t tell me so started JOKING about it being a boy. He obviously didn`t see the joke and took it the wrong way. But we were annoyed with him, obviously we`re gunna take the mick outta him. So then me and connor were left there whilst all the other abandoned us. I think the thing that really annoyed us is how Charlotte and Kerry know but not us. Charlotte's round his house right now. Funny how they`re now like the bestest of friends and neither me, connor OR kerry were invited round. I know this all sound so childish and it kinda is, It just really frustrates me.

James, if your reading this, which you will be because i`m gunna text you in a second whilst this is finished, I`m REALLY sorry like REALLY sorry!! I didn`t mean it seriously, you KNOW i would never say that and mean it. Fair enough you dont want us to know but just PLEASE dont ignore me. This year i swore to myself i wouldn`t loose any of my friends and be really nice, Well that worked didn`t it. 4 days in and i`ve already MESSED UP. Great going Beth. TBH, I dont blame you for not wanting to tell me. I have a secret too i`m keeping from all of you, a pretty big one at that...

So yeah, ONCE again i`m REALLY and TRULY sorry, to EVERYONE for being a bitch...

Including you Marc, I never meant it like you weren`t good enough for her, you are, its just she didn`t want it to happen, Like i said on msn, i`m REALLY sorry :)

I think thats most of the sorrys over now so onto the future!

The NEW me :)

New look, New Personality, New Attitude, New Look on life :)

Look out 2011

Here come Biffa <3 <3 <3